7/7/2025

I feel like my best isnt good enough and I know I act out, I get upset, I raise my voice, ect. I have the need to control what's going on around me, I dont like not knowing what's going on and when you last out and I dont know why, it gives me the urge to also push you away because I feel you're rejecting me from being involved when what's happened clearly has had an affect. I dont know, I feel lost and angry and hurt and all sorts. My heads scrambled. I guess today just isnt a good day. 

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